Saturday, February 3, 2007

Dear Mom...

Talk about time flying by... In a couple days I'll have been here 2 months. A couple days ago my family had a big surprise party for my Aunt Lynne's 40th birthday and tomorrow we'll all be at her place for Spencer's birthday/Superbowl party!!! I'm 2 weeks into my new job and so far it's been the best job I've ever had. I couldn't be happier right now even with everything that has been going on and I don't know if that's a good or bad thing?!? Roy and I have pretty much become conjoined twins since we do everything together. I know I wouldn't be as determined or focus if it weren't for him and I think he would say the same. We're each others best friend bar none...

Alice has decided to look into going to Baltimore for a Ewing's Phase Trial they offer there. Her and my mother Donna are inseparable like Roy and I have become. If they end up going they'll be gone for thirty days in the beginning leaving the house to Roy and myself. Maybe I'll get to actually sleep in a bed while they're gone?!? LOL Nah... I like where I sleep these days.

Mike from FullWell Studios in Phoenix is going to send me a CD of all the tracks we've cut so far without any vocals early next week. I've been reading a lot and have begun the process of putting down some ideas down on paper for what will eventually become songs. A couple years ago I wrote a song called "Somebody" for my mother since she was going through so many changes and tribulations. I recently revisited this song and completely redid it. What was once a slow ballad has become an up tempo rock song with yearnings of hope and better days. I finalized the lyrics around an hour ago and decided to post them up here. This song WILL be on my next record as I can already hear the final version in my head and is kind of a testament of what and where my head is at right now. The words may seem a little tragic but trust me... this song has optimism written all over it. For now I'm calling it "Donna"



Donna
I wish it were simple something I could fix
But my fathers pride is his crucifix
And sometimes, sometimes… you gotta let it go
Cause if you hold it all inside then you'll never even try
And all your dreams will die as they fall into the sea
What's the lost in this world's been replaced with a daughter and son
And now you're finally free
You're biding your time
You're biding your time
Can someone show us the way back around
Can someone show us the way back around
I wish I had the answers to all of this
Mending their dejected relationships
But sometimes, sometimes… it's better that I don't
Cause if I held it all inside then I'd never even try
And all my dreams would die as they fell into the sea
What's the lost in this world's been replaced with a daughter and son
And now I'm finally free
I'm biding my time
I'm biding my time
She's tethered and drowning cause she holds the blame
And my voice is empty and my shoes are stained
She closes the window as it starts to rain
I wonder if she feels if we hurt the same
She starts everyday with a laugh and a prayer
Hoping tomorrow he'll finally fight fair
Yeah we hear the warnings but we're still around
Show us back around, the way back around… back around, back around
Show us back around, the way back around… back around, back around

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